You squat,
your harness gathered at your knees,
Your hem draped on your elbow like a sash,
Intent to rise in case somebody sees,
Your erstwhile impulse to insouciance,
rash.
Your dress reveals the cleft in your behind,
Moonlit, pale, impatient, on the brink.
The halting stream
bedevils your decision.
For all you seem to care I might be blind,
And yes, I've had a glass or three
to drink,
But so must you,
to treat me to this vision.
How awkwardly
you wrestled with your clothes,
How shamefaced and coerced your crouching
strip,
How tightly doubled down into this pose
The blue-white bullet of your thigh
and hip,
How widely placed your feet and turned-in toes,
Your arches prised away from your high-heels,
What tact the passive
effort in your stance,
What silent evocation, what repose!
Your straining ankles tell me how it
feels
More poignantly than
can your backward glance.
But soft!
The sounds of night assume a poise
Above what sudden deep and steady pour?
All gods and natural things attend what noise
And fade to insignificance before
What patter more profound than cymbal crash?
That pool the paving stones refuse
to drink
You might have wished
away, but no, you hover,
A self-embracing
self-enclosed self-lover
Draining of necessity to think,
The gleaming surface dancing to the splash.
So here
you are, a poem, Woman Pissing,
Your bladder freeing up in its good
time,
A moment that annihilates all wishing
And drills upon the ringing stone its
rhyme.
Complete and still, encowled by the night,
Oblivious to darkness, out or in,
Nor caring for your
apogee in art
You stare unseeingly, and you are right
To spurn such promiscuity
of heart:
To look beyond this moment would be
sin,
Though whether
sin against yourself or God
I have attained to no compelling notion.
To fix faith in a formula seems odd
And speculation's dribble swells to
oceans.
Then piss!—while to effect some sort of marriage
I lay me down like a garage mechanic,
Methodical, though
heedless of my suit,
And slide in to inspect your undercarriage
Where, yielding me to inquiry less
manic,
I take your pale
cheeks in my hands and root.
You start
and render up a whispered scream,
The indecorum choking off your flow.
But soon you find your seat, renew your stream
While I adjust your wineskin's aim
below,
A thirsty basin for your pagan fount,
The sparkling source upon my forearms
braced.
Forever wilt thou
pour, and I be there,
This moment an eternity to count,
Eternity itself beyond
my care,
So gladdens me this burning bitter
taste.